Casting Art to the Net

Art is a celebration of God's gifts, both in our minds and the rest of His Creation.


Ed's Art Net is a free public web exhibition designed to encourage others.

Website Started

September 28, 2007


Website Finished


(work in progress)


Hint: Underlined text is a Hyperlink.

1. Workings

drawings, paintings, expositions, Bible references

2. Writings

God's good and perfect plan

3. Diversionings

motorcycle poem, ride adventure highlights

4. Messagings

cultural comments, conjecture, thoughtful humor

5. Meetings

brief self bio, bipolar disorder account


Thanks to 1&1 IONOS for their supportive web hosting.


Special thanks to all the people that help make the Internet operate!


An appreciative thanks to all the helpful and informative web resources linked throughout this site!

Glory belongs to God!

God's incredible Works and Words awakens our senses and heals our soul!

God is the reason I am alive and have a loving family. God deserves all the credit for the good you find here... I deserve credit for any errors.

Evil belongs with Satan!

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Artists finish their work and an audience completes it!

Ed's Art Net

Casting Art to the Net


My last career job was designing internet operating circuit boards along with a distinguished team of engineers, managers and support personnel. Prior to that I was an electronics technician with missile systems in the defense industry evolving into circuit board design. My first career job was a professional artist. During my younger years I worked many odd jobs beginning at age nine with a newspaper delivery route. I retired January 2020.

I'm happily married with two beautiful daughters and the cutest, smartest granddaughter on the planet! Plus a little grandson on the way! My good friend Travis once asked if I thought God's purpose for me was to be a teacher... I loved the question because he knows that I have some strong opinions. But I'm just a husband, father, grandfather and an aspiring old artist. My life, family and friends are a precious gift and so is my art.

Clear Air Turbulence

God works at His work and we sleep through it.

My favorite oldest ❤️ daughter took this bygone picture of me with another family member. I'm the one with both eyes closed. Jake was always the mild-mannered ham! I must have been practicing for retirement.

Bipolar Awareness

I have bipolar disorder, the modern day name for what was professionally referred to as manic-depressive disorder until 1980. Great strides occurred towards the end of the twentieth century in the successful treatment of this condition. New drugs became available that proved to help control the emotional extremes over time.

Bipolar disorder symptoms are not always readily apparent to people that surround someone with the illness. And unfortunately, not every person with bipolar responds well even to the modern medications that science has provided. Treatment is trial and error and depends a great deal on the bipolar individual to communicate honestly with their doctor to set a proper dosage of proper medications. Even then, there is no guarantee that the medications will work over a lifetime. Adjustments may need to be made from time to time to keep emotions in check. Fortunately, there are now several options for doctors and patients to pursue. It is possible to lead a successful life with this condition.

My purpose in writing about my bipolar condition is to help enlighten those that know me by sharing a little of my experience and also help inspire anyone with bipolar to realize that they can manage a relatively normal existence without being controlled by the extreme polarizing effects. Diligently taking proper medications and a cautious lifestyle are the two main ingredients for success. Working with a doctor and their support group along with activities that do not represent episode “triggers” is fundamental. It is important to learn from experience how to recognize the mood triggers and avoid them where possible. There are some good books that help too, such as Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder by Julie A. Fast and Dr. John Preston. If you know someone that is bipolar, I recommend giving the book a read. It's designed to help family and friends also.

Manic Depression (Self Portrait)

what actor knows

what the actor shows
well-being... (torment)
(anguish)... contentment
melting as it grows
from stealth to prose
disclose not sanity's gage
yet revealed on earth's lighted stage

monsters inside me

1978 - Pen and Ink


I was not aware and had not been diagnosed with manic-depressive disorder when I created this drawing but I did know that there was something wrong with me. This drawing was inspired by the emotional extremes I had been experiencing for a long time. Fortunately I had learned over my years how to hide my emotional state enough to function successfully around others. I managed as long as the "triggers" weren't too great. I was hospitalized in 1977 after a mental breakdown but was not properly diagnosed... at the time the doctor believed I had taken LSD which was not true... all I knew was that I was not in control of my brain. It wasn't until 2003 after another mental breakdown that I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder.

After my 2003 breakdown the doctors tried different medications at first but we finally settled on carbamazepine and risperidone for the mania and ultimately fluoxetine for the depression. Early on in my treatment after a few years of feeling mentally stronger I got the idea that I no longer needed to take the medications. So with the doctor's help my nurse and I began to reduce the dosages. I didn't make it to completely eliminating the medications before I had a manic episode. I'm grateful to my doctor and especially my nurse who supervises me for that lesson as I am now diligent about taking my meds. I expect I will be taking medications for the rest of my life.
I'm fortunate that science was able to develop successful treatments for this complex illness. I believe my father may have been bipolar but since his episodic symptoms were of a violent nature I don't feel that the doctors at the VA hospital understood this. I remember my mother saying something about "rage treatments". I don't know what all they used to treat him but I do know from my mother that they used shock therapy to calm him. He never got better for any long period of time while I was growing up so I suspect that they did not know how to properly treat him.
My father's sister was somewhat promiscuous and attempted suicide more than once. My five years older than me half brother died of suicide at age twenty one. They both may have had manic-depressive (bypolar) disorder but I don't know if they were ever diagnosed and treated for it. 

The lower left end of the image (an upside down caricature of a human head) represents downward depressed thinking. The upper right end of the image (an upside up caricature of a fire breathing dragon) represents the high energetic insanity of what I eventually came to know as manic thinking. The tiny dragons inside each polarized head represent the suicidal thoughts that can accompany the two extremes. 

Bipolar Mania

i moved the wind from nowhere to nowhere
cradled among heaven's bright and beautiful
unbound in uncharted abode

Sometimes manic thinking can be quite vivid, even extremely pleasant, making perfect sense to the individual but not usually to other people. Delusions of grandeur are common in the manic state.


thoughts of glory
thoughts with story 
oh wonderful feeling
mind is reeling
with prescription pleasure
without medicinal measure  


Sometimes manic thinking becomes distant. Racing thoughts can seem to have a life of their own... at its worse, it feels like someone else is controlling the brain. This can be very painful mentally as well as physically, kind of like sitting in the pilot’s seat of a jet aircraft and trying to control it with an array of external overriding remote controlling operators fighting over what direction and how fast the plane will go and each operator has a different flight plan. This extremely unpleasant condition can be horrifying and bewildering at the same time. It's like watching a suspenseful horror movie that does not make sense or provide a break in the tension.

Suicidal thoughts are also possible during the manic phase. Racing thoughts can lead to a feeling of hopelessness... a feeling of drowning in thought discontinuity... drowning in the sense of being aware of the lack of thought control.


thoughts fly by
no blinking eye 
the soul sees
the mind leave
is this madness
where is adeptness
drowning yet alive 
as soul cries

Manic behavior is unpredictable. Creativity can be extremely enhanced or thoughts can be wildly out of control. Achieving a safe mental balance with lifestyle and proper medications is always the primary goal.

Bipolar Depression

i lost the wind from nowhere to nowhere

ordered midst the dark and distant
bound firm in toxic anguish

Depression will kill you. I see depression as an evil wandering black hole seeking to devour life. It uses all sorts of tactics like reminding you in elaborate detail… over and over… any and all mistakes you’ve made in your lifetime. It also likes to tenderize you with thoughts of unworthiness, making you believe that you do not deserve to live. Another heart wrenching tactic is to take the joy out of the things that you love to do making you further feel inadequate unable to create and socialize. The most heinous of all is the life threatening suicidal thoughts that can occur. Life can seem too much to bear and at its worst, death appears to be relief. At extreme states, medical support and guidance from outside is usually needed.


I have dealt with the evil of depression on and off over most of my life. I have used alcohol to self medicate but that creates another set of problems. I take my prescribed medication for bipolar, try to get good sleep and constantly work at controlling my thoughts. I know the black hole is starting to move closer when I begin to reflect on my history of mistakes. To combat, I tell my brain to think of something good that I did to change focus. It’s an ongoing mental battle that must be fought because the black hole wants to consume me. Writing this is an example of fighting the fight. It helps to focus on what I have learned in my experience. I remind myself that my suicide would deeply hurt my family and friends. It's also important to remember that it DOES NOT LAST FOREVER and will subside in time. I pray and repeat those two thoughts many times until I’m feeling better. Exercise and healthy eating habits including vitamins helps too. Things I do play a big part in helping my cause.


I usually just tell my wife that I don’t feel good. I explain that it’s like having a virus in my brain. I let her know that thankfully my medication helps so it isn’t as bad as it could be. I’m blessed to have a loving family that cares about me. I'm blessed in so many ways. Since I take meds that actually work, the depression usually doesn’t last very long. Bipolar depression stems from malfunctioning brain chemistry so there isn’t necessarily an outside stimulus or tangible reason for it. However, there are certain triggers that help feed depressed thinking. I have lots of good reasons to be a happy person but sometimes I'm fighting a battle.

darkness creeps

the soul creaks
writhing wormy things bask in the dim 
i shudder, i sicken, i'm sightless
when will this end... 
this eclipse amidst the day
stealthy demons lurking in the shadow...
laughing insanely in its playground 
more than a thorn in the side...
a black hole slowly devouring being
i linger coveting death...
but take heart... have patience!
relief has always been time away
hold on to the rim
you know darkness seeps... 
only 'til light casts it back to the deep...
until darkness comes again


Dealing with depression is a battle of the bad thoughts with good thoughts AND deeds. Depression is a stubborn greedy evil black hole. PLEASE ask for help from outside when you first sense your depression is heading out of control. It is very important that seeking help from outside be part of your battle strategy when the black hole gets too near.

Bipolar Stable

i ride the wind from nowhere to nowhere

residing in God sheltered creation 

reflecting science in earthly appreciation 

Taking Charge


Currently, there's not a cure for bipolar disorder. But thankfully, science has developed several drugs that can help the brain operate without the extreme manic and depressed conditions.

Having a caring and stable home life is a great benefit. Managing bipolar is difficult at times but it is more so without people around you that want to help. I'm blessed with a wonderful caring family. Not everyone with bipolar disorder is as fortunate.


Gratefully, my regiment of medications and lifestyle are working well. I also know that doing my best to listen to God, through prayer, His Word and the World around me helps drive my success. I am in many ways very blessed. I am grateful to God for EVERYTHING especially my family, the science and the good people that He helps me encounter.

Mental Health

Bipolar therapy... The folks at LifeStance / Georgia Behavioral Health provide excellent care designed for my specific needs. I'm especially grateful to my supervising nurse for her care, knowledge and understanding.

i moved the wind from nowhere to nowhere
cradled among heaven's bright and beautiful
unbound in uncharted abode

i lost the wind from nowhere to nowhere

ordered midst the dark and distant
bound firm in toxic anguish

i ride the wind from nowhere to nowhere

residing in God sheltered creation 

reflecting science in earthly appreciation 

God therapy... Bipolar weather?

Writing therapy... Art is a celebration of God's gifts, both in our minds and the rest of His Creation.

A twig is a miracle of creation. I consider its origin from a small seed and all the cosmic engines that come into play in order for it to develop into existence. I think about my meager hands and how they could never articulate such a beautiful thing of wonder as a twig from a seed much less a beautiful Blue Ridge Parkway scene!

Spiritual therapy... Scene from Pisgah Inn, Blue Ridge Parkway. God's bridge between darkness and light painted with morning color... His Art is infinitely the most inspirational!

My favorite youngest ❤️ daughter took this photo of our home!
That's my favorite oldest ❤️ daughter at the front door!

Family therapy... Home is where the mind can rest and the spirit can soar! 

Porch therapy...This is a Fall season photo... one of my favorite times to enjoy our front porch!

Wind therapy... Beautiful spirit machine, Yona!

Craft therapy... Playhouse I built for my daughters in Spring 1990 matching the basic style of our home. It sports a Dutch door with a heart shaped peep window. Inside I incorporated a fold away table using my early years drawing board.

Let Go therapy... This LEGO dragon specializes in the eradication of a stressful day!

Art therapy... This 1971 drawing creation was a representation of my rebellious youth. Artists finish their work and an audience completes it.

Cloud therapy... This God's Art picture is from one of the Blue Ridge Parkway overlooks. I was riding alone on my motorcycle and God grabbed my attention out of the corner of my eye with this lone Little Cloud that reminds me of "Yona". I felt Great Love as I always do when I'm feeling exceptionally grateful. God loves us and is always letting us know! see 1 John 4:16

Ed (Bear)
Casting Art to the Net